O Henut Who declares, Who opens the mouth of the pelican, Shining One Who opens up the doors, Who causes spirits to go forth, Who prophesies the words of the Netjeru; O Shining One in the sky Open for us the doors, Open for us the doors of the sky That we will go forth to accomplish The works of the Netjeru; Declare for us, prophesy for us, Your words being our boons and our favors. O glorious Goddess shining in the sky! - Hymn to the Goddess Henut by Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa On J

In studio today with glorious Sekhmet, nearing completion on the reliefs of the Akem-Shield of Sekhmet the Eye of Ra. Her reliefs have taken me longer than any work in my career. I'm exhausted!

Should we expect Great Sekhmet to mother us, to protect our feelings, to nurture? We should rather expect the terrible *Mother* to step on our feelings and burn us to the core. Our ego runs from Her for She is the ultimate reality ego cannot endure. She takes our heart by storm.

“I turn from this earth over which living men wander to find pleasures and senses that can never be filled; green youth that fades, riches and praise that stand for as long as a blade of grass stands; they are all cut down by that indomitable wind that drives the swallows before him; this is what I am, and what you are, and what we are; meeting the sky again after our journey, where there is never again a thing to fear.” (39: I Slay Death In His Field) This is a book about de

"In my practice I operate without guilt, I work within a framework devoid of sin and subjective morality that changes as the wind blows. Society is not my master, neither trends nor popular culture. My practices operate according to divine will, joy, and liberation from the ego."

"You have a conscience. Deep down you know what's right and wrong. You have your gods and your relationships with the Holy Powers. Keep coming back to those and act from those. Don't be swayed to act against them or you will lose everything. Ignorance is blindly following. THINK.!"

"The purpose behind my work isn't human gratification or consumption. That people can see my work is a mere byproduct. The entire purpose is to provide a material vehicle for the Gods, to become the visible emanation of the Numinous. That is the Great Work; the Alchemy of the Gods."

"You want to be a hot take? You want to trend? You want to influence? The Sacred is dangerous to the ego, it tears down our illusions. It removes us from the center. You're going to have to shed your clothes and learn to smash everything to pieces, including your popularity."

"Accept right now that you're going to be judged and scrutinized; everyone has an opinion. Your practices must stand on their own regardless of what others say or do. Keep living what you know is right, and give others that same respect. Judgment? A. Dime. A. Dozen. Don't fall for it."

"Maintain your focus on developing your practices as your conscience guides you, as the Holy Powers inform your service. Avoid adopting what others say you should/ shouldn't do unless your direct experience gives you the truth of those insights. Trust your own experiences."

At work on the Akem-Shield of Sekhmet the Eye of Ra. Notice the stains from libations. This is not an artwork for decoration or inspiration, but a budding cult image being tuned for possession by the Goddess. This is becoming Her body. This is becoming a living being.

The Akem-Shield of Sekhmet Who Incinerates the Rebels is beginning to emerge as the bas reliefs are built over the under drawing. Here is Sekhmet as the Eye of Ra that consumes all enemies of the Gods, enemies of Ma'at or Divine Order. There is no calm beneath Her surface. She is the Mistress of Destruction, the One Who Rejoices in Slaughter, the Mistress of Terror Whom even the Gods fear. She is the Eye of Ra, the most terrible emanation of Justice. But the just have no fear

When the Fall of 2000 approached I was at a crossroads in my life, having recently left an abusive domestic relationship and begun anew on my own, dedicating myself in between my two nearly full-time jobs to my spiritual studies and meditation practice. It was at this time that the healing presence of Antinous appeared in my life directly as a source of guidance and compassion, but also as a source of renewing my sexual and emotional life as a liberated Gay man. As incongruou

"When life brings a fight to your doorstep, it's time to fall back on your basic practices, harder than ever; meditation, mindfulness on your actions, sacred engagement through chanting the Names, offering. Your practices don't show their true colors until things fall apart. Get busy."

"We can complain of the lack of response we feel we're getting from the Holy Powers; we can blame Them for our suffering, for our lacking, but what we receive from Them is in direct response to the effort we make to engage, offer, and serve. We get what we give, so make the effort."